R.A.H.M.A.N. The End?

R.A.H.M.A.N.
Is this the end?  

As I was reading, my heart starts to beat faster and faster...  I hoped that it was because of the coffee.  But then, no, I started to fear about what will happen in the future...

Here I am, standing at the crossroad trying to figure out which path to choose.  It is not a easy decision.  Who the hell can I trust?  I feel vulnerable because I don't feel good YET with either party.  Do I have to choose someone who let me lived comfortably till today or someone who promises that I will have a safer and more reliable place to live in? 

From what I was reading, many of them acted childishly and irresponsibly to my country and it's a shame.  :(  It made me wonder if my leaders are truly educated or some 'Samseng' trying to be a fool of themselves.  Saw many news about these stupid acts like the 'Butt Dance' and am really angry about it.  Dato' Ambiga's response to stop 'Tosai' mockery makes me feel good because that is what an educated leader would perform. 

But who knows?  What are the plots and plans they are up to?  I cracked my brains and well, who knows,  there are always hidden agendas that are kept in secret, and we, the citizens are being used as their pawn. 

The elections are around the corner.  If I'm on time for voting, I will clear my mind, clear my hatreds, my anger.  And when it's time I will ask myself :-

"Am I ready for a CHANGE?" 

Tan.Desiree.

Back to da days!

Back to the days without electricity. Warm, perspiring, but luckily it's raining... No choice but to sit at our front porch and enjoy the fresh air from the cool drizzling weather.

I can imagine how our grandparents lived during their era. :))

Quite nice actually..

想聽些甚麼話？

當你開始懷疑自己的能力時，甚麼夢想都變的很遙遠。 是誰在甚麼時候，在怎樣的情況下說了甚麼評語讓你對自己的表現感到失望？

如果對方只是想表達一些意見呢？ 這不代表原本不好，只是如果加上他的意見會更好呢？ 這個時候是不是要用學習的態度去接受意見？

如果自己很清楚自己的勢力，目標，意見來了其實很容易消化或過濾你覺得有用的訊息。

其實人都一樣，我們只愛聽我們覺得好聽的話。 難道不是嗎？

**題外話： 明天早上很想吃烤麵包配上熱奶茶，the Malaysian Chinese style. 可以的話再加上兩粒半生熟蛋!

Good night..

Source of Happiness

Life is a repetitive of happiness followed by unhappiness. It's a circle. I mean cycle. Everyone awaits the moment of happiness everyday, whereas some don't see where they come from.

Where is the source of happiness? I am lucky or because I'm easily contented that I find happiness everywhere in my life. I got so happy today because:

1. I finished a whole big packet of M&M's chocolate!
2. I made Bobby happy by making him his favourite mutton meal.
3. Company called up and said some artiste complimented my songs, and she want MORE!!
4. I wrote a song.
5. Sista called me up for a massage.
6. Went for a movie with my family and love.
7. Looking at my little brother NOW, sleeping on my bed.

But what do we expect next? Unhappy events? Why do we always fall so deep in emotion like falling from the sky each time we feel so fulfilling bout our lives? Is this why some ppl chose to shun away from being too happy?

A master once told me that life always needs a balance. The "Middleway" he called that, is where we mustn't be feeling "OVERLY" with something. Too happy, too sad, too ambitious, too skeptical, too confident, too scared! An average of everything is the best medicine I guess. Sounds like my mum when she said about eating. Eat all sorts of thing u like, but moderately!

Well, it does make sense because when you feel on top of the world, the next moment u might be feeling empty again when things are back to normal. This is when we start looking for our source of Happiness.

What is your source of happiness? Try looking for one now if you have not found any. And it's better to have more options because you do not want to have a double let down when your only source of Happiness is down on its mood! (hehe)...

Good nite fellows. Sweet dreams..

Love,
Desiree

Will You ‘Merry’ Me?

Will You ‘Merry’ Me?  

Just as I was listening to Bruno Mars’ Marry You, I figured out that the whole idea of getting married is so much fun to the girl.  It started from getting proposed by their loved ones, got shocked, saying “YES, I DO!” and then wearing an engagement ring for the first time.  Everyone gets touched and there will be eyes full of envy as they watch.  Followed by putting on the veil & beautiful as white as pearl wedding dress, walk down the aisle and receive tons and tons of congratulatory messages.  As soon as they are done with the ceremony, their new phase of life begins!

‘I am so bored with my life’, says Amelly.  

‘Why?  Aren’t you happily married with the one you have always loved?’

‘I mean, Yes, I am happily married with Zac, but that’s all.  This is it.  Aw, I just kinda miss my old freedom where I get to lead a life not having to report my whereabouts.  Now I have to get back home on time for dinner, go marketing, helping to look after in-law’s kids, be a good wife, sister-in-law, daughter-in-law, bla bla bla...’

‘Can’t you make sometime for yourselves, I mean, make a deal with your hubby!  Ask him for some time on your own, not having to go through timetables.  I guess he’ll be fine with your request, won’t he?’

‘I am so not sure about it.  He might agree, but what will his family think about me?  I don’t wanna ruin this ‘perfect’ moment he always wanted as a family.  I guess it’s just too cruel.’

Many friends told me, getting married to the one you love doesn’t mean getting married to ONE person; you are in fact marrying into another family (as if we don’t have enough problems to handle in OUR own family).  Time is always inadequate because we have to compromise and divide our most PRECIOUS free time (normally high-teas, chats till we’re out of topics, and sometimes sports with our own girlfriends) to both sides of our family.  How many of us do enjoy such demanding “married job”?  I certainly am afraid of it just by listening to stories from my girlfriends about how you have to cope with your in-laws! 

 

This was why the second episode of Cinderella wasn’t popular!  I bet you wouldn’t know it exist!  I watched it, trust me.  And it was just so down to earth, no fairy tales worth for us to imagine because it was all about her being married into the royal family, was trying her best to fit herself into her new status and home.  Of course they didn’t leave out the part where she has to build the relationship between herself and her IN-LAWS, the King and the Queen!  In the movie, she was often left alone at home because the prince needs to go away from home all the time and all she could do was wait.  She also had to prepare a feast to welcome the prince when he’s back.  In conclusion, she was all the time waiting and serving her man and his family.  Some of you might find it interesting but how long can you do this for?  

Is there life after marriage?  We truly wanna believe in it, but we need some real good examples badly before we wanna jump into it.  I am sure that this topic always brings about a very tough and exhausting debate!  Well, to each his own!  Anyway, Bruno Mars’ Marry You was actually quite a good suggestion we can try if we wanna just get ‘merry’ instead of ‘married’ as his lyrics goes; 

‘If you wake up and you wanna break up that’s cool.  No I won’t blame you.  It was fun, girl.’  

Teehee!